Unfortunately, I'm also paranoid about bad haircuts. As a result, I usually get my hair cut once every three months or so, and let it grow out so long that you can't tell what the original style was in the first place. I just never found a place I knew I could go and actually get what I wanted, but finally, I have found that place. It is the Long Beach Barber Shop. A barber shop where lesbians can go and get lesbian hair! So finally, yesterday, for $20 (with tip), I now have the lesbian hair of my dreams!
Here's a picture of my hair right before the cut. This is me at Halloween pretending to be John McCain:
You can tell from my expression just how unhappy I am about the length of my hair.And here are two shots of my new hair. You can tell how happy I am from the smile. Also, my nose looks bigger than usual here.
I realize I need a shot of the front, so I'll post one of those later. One of the weird things I've found about moving into what truly fits yourself, whether that's butch, femme, etc, is that when I first adopt a new marker of what I feel like I am, it doesn't quite fit yet. It's almost as if, since it's new to me, and I'm paying a lot of attention to it, I feel like everyone else is paying a lot of attention to it, too. It can make you feel very conspicuous, even if whatever the change was isn't that big of a deal, and if you're like me, and don't have the best confidence, it's an awkward, uncomfortable feeling.
I'm still worried that the new "do" is too feminine! Though, really what I think my paranoia is based in is that people still interpret me, as a person, as more feminine than I'd like. So, since I'm focusing on my new hair, and paranoid about the above, now I worry that it's too girly.
I have a feeling, though, since I like my short hair so much, that with a little time, I'll feel more comfortable with it and not be so paranoid.
4 comments:
You *do* have nice hair. That's a good cut, I'm sure you'll settle into it pretty soon. And, you may find as I have, that going from a short cut to an even shorter one is pretty easy to do after a while.
And I don't think it's all that girly, if it's any help :-)
I don't think it looks feminine - you look really great with that cut.
Your John McCain is awesome!
I like it! :)
I like it too. It looks very natural on you. Since I went to a shorter cut I have a hard time finding someone who isn't afraid to do what I ask. I went from longer hair this year to short and it took me a while too but now I'm loving it.
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